"That was my wake-up moment," Smith said. The therapist's startling intensity sent her to the internet again, only this time she found thoughtful voices willing to scrutinize transgender medicalization and the underlying ideology, such as 4thwavenow.
"And that's when I said: 'Oh my God, what have I done?" Smith said.
"She found the coercive language that the therapist used to frame her choice as between hormone suppressants or a mental hospital particularly disturbing as it caused her to call into question her maternal instincts," the article explains. "The therapist snidely dismissed her questions about the puberty-blocking drugs and gave her misleading assurances that they had been thoroughly studied and were a completely safe way to 'explore gender.'"
"When I expressed concerns he told me I was a highly anxious mother," Smith said.
Unable to keep burying her doubts and regret, Smith attempted to reverse course with her daughter, but it wasn't that simple. To this day, Michelle feels horribly betrayed, has screamed at Smith repeatedly, and has threatened to run away several times.
Ever since turning away from the therapist, Smith has lived month after month in immense pain. The stress of going against the transgender tide has caused her to physically deteriorate. Friends have abandoned her as she seeks to cut off transgender influences in her family's life.
"The hardest thing is that I didn't have support from anyone throughout this process," she said. "This was something that, unlike most issues where there is good information, most issues where you can find a therapist to help you or a support group, or even friends and family who get it and bring you casseroles — there's none of that."
Smith is not alone, however: "The only place where she has found refuge has been other parents in similar predicaments who converse online, hiding behind pseudonyms. They keep their identities anonymous because of the social and increasingly legal repercussions —depending on the state or locality — that they could face for refusing to go along with their children’s confusion."
"To this day, I feel like my closest relationships now are with those parents. And yet, we don't even know each other's real names," she added.
"I do worry that the only way for my daughter to see the truth, to come to me as my daughter once again, is to go through some serious medical changes," Smith said, explaining that her daughter has done her own online research and now knows what reputable medical organizations and their guidelines say.
The brainwashing, according to Smith, is all but complete as schools, pop culture, and medical authorities lend their vocal support to the transgender movement.
"When a child has been affirmed for years and years ... when they're celebrated at school as special for being ‘transgender’... when authority figures treat them like they are the opposite sex and use their male name and pronouns without hesitation ... when they've had experts tell them they should medically transition ... and everything on the internet tells them this is true, how could anyone reach a child who has been victimized by such deep, cult-like indoctrination? How could a parent possibly undo this?” Smith asked.
"The only thing I can do right now is love her with all my heart," she continued, choking back tears. "Everything I say to her I say in love. I'm the only person in this world who's willing to accept her wrath of rejection by speaking that truth in love because everybody else will tell her what she wants to hear."
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